Fear of Disappointing God
Did I disappoint you Lord?
Did I disappoint you Lord in the Garden?
I was so tired and fell asleep – and left you to pray alone.
Oblivious to the timing, that this was our last opportunity to fellowship together.
Did I disappoint you Lord when the soldiers came?
We cried out asking if we should draw our swords – but I did not wait for your answer.
Reacting in anger, I lashed out – and you had to restore and heal the harm that I caused.
Did I disappoint you Lord in the Courtyard?
I had boldly said I was willing to die with you – but instead I denied knowing you.
The rooster crowed announcing the dawning of a new day – and you looked straight at me.
Overcome with shame I walked out, to hide my disappointment,
The definition of disappoint is to fail to fulfill hopes or expectations. Sometimes we place our expectations on other people and are disappointed when they don’t behave in the way we think that they should. And sometimes we are disappointed in ourselves, when we don’t live up to our own expectations.
Perfect love drives out all fear!
God is never disappointed in us, for He is Omniscient, simply meaning ‘all-knowing.’ He sees us as we truly are, and demonstrated His love in that ‘while we were still sinners Christ died for us.’ God sees and knows all of our weaknesses and still He loves us fully. No-one can measure or contain the never-ending love that the Lord has for us.
See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!1 John 3:1
When we love the Lord, it is natural to want to please Him. We want our behaviour to reflect our position as a deeply loved child of God. Sometimes we may be disappointed in ourselves and regret the way we have behaved, the things we have done or, conversely, not done! But God’s love for us does not change.
God’s love for us, is far greater than our ability to comprehend His love.Tweet
God of restoration
I am so thankful that we have Peter’s story and we can see so clearly the Lord’s response to his failures. The Lord met Peter again on the seashore and graciously gave him the opportunity to move on from his mistakes. There was no recrimination from the Lord, no reproach or condemnation. Jesus looked straight into Peter’s heart and the only question he asked of him was, “Do you love me, Peter?” The Lord knew the answer, but He was giving Peter the opportunity to leave regret and disappointment behind. Jesus wanted Peter to reaffirm his commitment and to know full restoration.
“Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.”2 Corinthians 7:10
We too can move on from our mistakes and become the person that the Lord has called us to be. Peter became one of the leaders of the early church, opening the doors to the Gentiles and building a firm foundation for generations to come. He wrote these words approximately 35 years after Jesus’ death, passing on what he had received:
“So don’t lose a minute in building on what you’ve been given, complementing your basic faith with good character, spiritual understanding, alert discipline, passionate patience, reverent wonder, warm friendliness and generous love, each dimension fitting into and developing others. With these qualities active and growing in your lives, no grass will grow under your feet, no day will pass without its reward as you mature in your experience of our Master Jesus. Without these qualities you can’t see what’s right before you, oblivious that your old sinful life has been wiped off the books.” 2 Peter 1:5-9 MSG
Prayer of restoration
Thank you Lord, that because of Your great love, we can be assured of full forgiveness and restoration. You are never disappointed in us, your love is all encompassing, and we can move on from our mistakes. I recommit myself to You, believing that Your compassion never fails. I receive afresh Your mercy and grace, and leave the past behind. Amen.
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